You can be angry with me if you want to be. It's okay.
But I want you to know I am not happy he is dead. I am very sorry about it.
Caiman was my friend. He and I talked for a while last night. He had something ugly inside him that he was very afraid of. I know what this feels like. Whatever that ugly thing was, it killed my friend Mollymauk, not Caiman.
More than anything, Caiman was afraid he would lose control of himself today. That he would be paired against someone who would not be able to fight back, and that he would hurt them, which is not what he wanted. I did not know at first whether the person I was fighting today was that ugly person who murdered Mollymauk or if it was Caiman. If I was smiling during that fight, it was only because I was glad for him once I saw that his fears did not come to pass, and that he was himself until the end.
I'm sorry for your loss, and I am sorry that I took your friend away from you.
week 3; sunday
You can be angry with me if you want to be. It's okay.
But I want you to know I am not happy he is dead. I am very sorry about it.
Caiman was my friend. He and I talked for a while last night. He had something ugly inside him that he was very afraid of. I know what this feels like. Whatever that ugly thing was, it killed my friend Mollymauk, not Caiman.
More than anything, Caiman was afraid he would lose control of himself today. That he would be paired against someone who would not be able to fight back, and that he would hurt them, which is not what he wanted. I did not know at first whether the person I was fighting today was that ugly person who murdered Mollymauk or if it was Caiman. If I was smiling during that fight, it was only because I was glad for him once I saw that his fears did not come to pass, and that he was himself until the end.
I'm sorry for your loss, and I am sorry that I took your friend away from you.