[she nods once, because... of course it is. she still thinks about it herself. unwinding things to that moment again and again. she knows how she could do it, now. how things could be better, how she could be better. quicker. faster. smarter. it isn't like the temptation isn't present, but...]
I understand.
[...]
But... if you could do it, right now.
Would you undo every good thing between now and then?
[He folds his arms across his chest, leans forward with a deep sigh.]
If I did it right. If I did everything exactly right. . . it might not undo anything. But even the smallest mistake or miscalculation, and. . . together, my friends and I have done some incredible things. We have helped one another, we have brought families back together. We have even ended a war. And. . . I value my friends very much. Even if the risk that I would hurt them or jeopardize what we've achieved is small, I. . . I don't think I can take it.
But if I'm not undoing it then. . . that means I have to live with what I've done forever. Live with their blood on me for the rest of my life. And I don't know if I. . . can stomach that idea.
I have a little magic that lets me. . . rewind the clock a bit. Mainly useful in a fight. Only seconds, and only once.
[So he gets that. But the bigger implications. . . there's a reason he became a little obsessive about theoretical physics when exposed to it.]
But it's good you can use this gift of yours in such a responsible way, even knowing. . . [Her father. She tried once, but. If you went back a little further. . . could fate really stand in your way?]
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I understand.
[...]
But... if you could do it, right now.
Would you undo every good thing between now and then?
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[He folds his arms across his chest, leans forward with a deep sigh.]
If I did it right. If I did everything exactly right. . . it might not undo anything. But even the smallest mistake or miscalculation, and. . . together, my friends and I have done some incredible things. We have helped one another, we have brought families back together. We have even ended a war. And. . . I value my friends very much. Even if the risk that I would hurt them or jeopardize what we've achieved is small, I. . . I don't think I can take it.
But if I'm not undoing it then. . . that means I have to live with what I've done forever. Live with their blood on me for the rest of my life. And I don't know if I. . . can stomach that idea.
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That's how I feel.
I mostly use my ability on the field of battle. Thinking about it elsewhere...
[shaking her head. too much can change. too much probability, in the words of the theoretical physics class.]
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[So he gets that. But the bigger implications. . . there's a reason he became a little obsessive about theoretical physics when exposed to it.]
But it's good you can use this gift of yours in such a responsible way, even knowing. . . [Her father. She tried once, but. If you went back a little further. . . could fate really stand in your way?]
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I still think about it.
But I think... she'd be mad.
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[...]
She was... boisterous. And had strong opinions.
So I think about her when I use it. What she would say.