[so she took matters into her own hands. for her sake, for the sake of everyone here, for Byleth's sake. . . at least, that's what she tells herself, in order to stave off the guilt of having killed someone she liked]
[There's a sense of approval from him - not running. He doesn't seem judgmental or to want her to be punished, just that.]
I did mean what I said - I think it is possible to care for Byleth but also not feel you deserve what you have been through. Motives are important - mercy, trying to save who you can - they aren't bad ones. Whatever else.
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[. . .]
[she looks away, hand drifting to her upper arm. the same one she clutched during trial that no one asked about]
. . . it wasn't fair, was it? For her to be forced into hurting people when she didn't really want to.
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I can understand that thinking.
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She couldn't promise me she wouldn't do it again.
. . . so.
[so she took matters into her own hands. for her sake, for the sake of everyone here, for Byleth's sake. . . at least, that's what she tells herself, in order to stave off the guilt of having killed someone she liked]
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. . . You protested so much whenever anyone suggested this might have been the reason someone killed her.
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[and sometimes you are filled with self-loathing and act out in order to incur punishment because you think you deserve it!! it's fine, right??]
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[There is a lot of understanding there.]
. . . You tried to hurt Otome. So we would have no choice but to punish you?
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[she says nothing, but. . . he may get the feeling he is right on the money]
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[Yeah, he thought so.]
. . . Well, you got what you were seeking. But the worst punishments are always the ones we give ourselves.
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I'm not running away from my actions. From my-- choices. Not anymore.
[she breathes out]
So whatever happens tomorrow, it'll be what it'll be.
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[There's a sense of approval from him - not running. He doesn't seem judgmental or to want her to be punished, just that.]
I did mean what I said - I think it is possible to care for Byleth but also not feel you deserve what you have been through. Motives are important - mercy, trying to save who you can - they aren't bad ones. Whatever else.